I’m Choosing Strength While My Body Throws Curveballs

A messy week of medicine, mobility, and mindset turns into a clear-eyed plan. I open up about why unclear x-rays pushed me to a Halloween CT scan, what the images might mean for a partial or total hip replacement, and how osteoporosis complicates the decision. Pain has a timeline and a cost, and I trace both—back to mid-July—while making the case for choosing function over fear when the joint won’t cooperate.

There’s more under the surface: colon treatment arriving by UPS, GI side effects that hijack the day, and the quiet discipline of tracking symptoms and messaging the care team before small problems become big ones. Between switching dentists, coordinating imaging, and nudging school paperwork across the finish line, the to-do list becomes a roadmap to agency. Rehab will be hard if surgery happens, but I’ve walked that road and know the steps: honest expectations, consistent effort, and a community that reminds me why progress matters.

Transportation is its own battle. Financing for a vehicle didn’t come through, so I’m exploring family support and accessibility options without apology. I don’t need luxury; I need reliable, safe mobility that respects my body’s limits. Through it all, I stay focused on what I can control and invite listeners to be part of the momentum. Share the episode, send it to a friend who needs a nudge, and help us reach 10K downloads across the feeds. Subscribe, leave a review, and tell me: what’s the hardest step you took toward healing, and what did it teach you?

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Update Across All Feeds

SPEAKER_00 0:03

Hi you guys. This is going on all my podcast feeds. So it's a recording only for all my podcast feeds.

Where To Subscribe

SPEAKER_00 0:17

A mental health podcast. A winning haunt ink with a disability. And so and please subscribe to Inks with a disability. That's on Buzz Sprout. A winning heart is on Buzz Sprout. On Mental Health One is on Blueberry, but it it can be found everywhere too. And so here's the update today. Okay.

Health Status And Timeline

SPEAKER_00 0:54

The update as it stands on October twenty-ninth Wednesday. I should have realized that. On October twenty-ninth when this is being recorded. I am so it's October twenty-ninth, Wednesday.

GI Side Effects And Meds

SPEAKER_00 1:36

I actually going through a Colin trans a KAS frequent transplant. Right now, I got this stuff yesterday dropped off at my door via UPS, which that was interesting. Today I've been having a bunch of diarrhoea, yes. I know TMI, but diarrhea because not only the Colin Clans, but the Bank of Myerson. So yeah, it's been fun. It's been fun. It's been fun. It's been real.

Vehicle Financing Setback

SPEAKER_00 2:26

So that is that, and I did not get financing for my vehicle, which is okay. We're going to work on that as of probably after well, probably before Christmas, because I am going to ask my family if they my mom's family if they can give me a vehicle, since they're the ones that don't want me on public transportation. I could care less how I get from point A to point B, quite frankly. I mean it's a handicapped existenceable bus, but I could care less. But do I need all the bells and the whistles? That's nice, but at the end of the day I put my pants on just like you do. One leg in, one leg in. Call it good. And even with a contraction, it's one leg in, one leg in. So contracted

Upcoming CT Scan And Orthopedics

SPEAKER_00 3:56

leg. Now, that being said, I have to get a CT scan on Halloween, which is on Friday, and I literally have to go get a CT scan on Friday. And I have to then wait till November 7th to see what he had he, my doctor, Doctor Washington, Dylan Washington, El Devoso, Arizona, in Phoenix, Arizona. In Phoenix, Arizona. And I have to wait to see what he says what he's gonna do about my hip. They tried to take x-rays and it was uh the x-rays were successful, but the imaging, how the imaging came out, you really can tell. So you really can't tell with the x-ray, so that's why he wants me to do a CT scan. And I'm like, okay, that's that's fine, but really I don't

Hip Replacement Possibilities

SPEAKER_00 5:30

do a CT scan. Uh so I'm hoping that he's going to give me a partial hip replacement or total hip replacement because I'm no spy no spring chicken, no spy chicken here anymore. I'm almost 38 years old and the way my body's set up is I have weak bones due to osteoporosis. And yeah. So I get a dexter scan, bone density test, and yeah. Should get one of the yeah, but I don't. I'm actually in the middle of switching dentists too, and so that's been fun. But we yeah, we're gonna see what happens as for as getting a vehicle and getting a getting my hip replaced or realign. I don't think you can realign it at this point. My hip is too far gone. I mean it's not bone on bone, but it's certainly out and what I believe is out, and then it's this is just gone on way too long. I mean, July 17th it happened, and July 16th, the in the early morning I cannot sleep because of Allie Allie Owie, Allie, Allie, Allie. And I believe my hip wasn't good, the hospital didn't do anything about it, but yeah. So it's either hip replacement or whatever Dr. Washington wants to do, but I think in my own personal opinion, a personal hip replacement is going to be good, or even a full one is going to be good. I know the rehab will be hell on that, but it's okay. I did it before and I was dang close walking to

Resilience, School Paperwork, And Goals

SPEAKER_00 8:20

the bathroom. I'll come back up walking even stronger with uh smashing bricks and eating meals for breakfast. I mean I'll come back from this even stronger. Right now we are just dealing with teensy winsy setbacks on top of teensy wingsy setting backs. But and if you hear me out of breast a little bit, I'm still dealing with all kind of that's it's a lot better than it was, but I'm still dealing with it. So yeah, so literally life is lifing, and yeah, and I have yet to submit the paperwork to school. I'm going to email my doctor today and say would you send me the copy you signed and then I'll sign it again. And so I hope you guys enjoy.

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Please share all this knowledge and wisdom out with friends. Let's get to a thousand downloads on ten thousand downloads on mental health podcasts. I'm in a mindful minute, and then let's get to ten thousand on winning a heart and ink with a disability. Let's get to ten thousand. So my next goal is ten thousand. Thanks. See you guys, bye you guys.